This week was a short week at work. I enjoyed a long weekend with my wife to celebrate our 25th anniversary, and that landed me back in the office on Wednesday morning with a pretty hefty pile of things to catch up on and a pretty meeting-heavy day. The goal was survival! No time for taking time, and too much to do to spend time thinking about things.
Yeah. That was not going to work. When you are in a position of leadership in an organization, you need take time where it needs to be taken. If you don’t then things are going to get missed and it is going to hurt your team.
Not every conversation this week had significant weight, but there were several that were very important, and a couple of those seemed pretty unimportant at first listen. I won’t say that all of the conversations were fun, but they were significant in one way or another.
A couple of things to remember about conversations at work:
Your superiors want to know you are listening. Give them the attention they need to gain confidence that you are on top of the situations that concern them.
Your team wants to know you are listening. The concerns they have may not always be pivotal to the department mission or goals, but they are important to them. Make them feel valued.
One last thing. Work conversations have a time and place. At work! Take care not to bring too much home with you. You need a break from work, and your family might not need to hear about it either. When we bring work home, it makes them feel like they don’t matter as much as they should. Keep things in balance.
I’d like to say I have this under control, but let’s face it, we all have room to grow! Listening to those around us will give us those opportunities. Just listen!
Another lap around the sun has taken place and we find ourselves again staring at the fresh landscape of a new year. Look at that! Still in the package and everything! I hope it is easier to open than 2018 was. You just gotta hate that hard plastic shell… Whoops. I digressed!
Over the last several years I have tried to take time over the dwindling days of the year to reflect a little bit and to cast a vision for myself for the coming year. I don’t like “resolutions”, but I have tried to set goals, and some of them actually have been accomplished. I’d like to think that a couple of them have even helped me be a better man, husband, and dad. These reflective moments are good for us. Hindsight is foundational for future endeavors. I think I heard that from some semi-intelligent fella.
Hindsight is foundational for future endeavors. – Tom Tanner
I guess it is time to get to it.
2018 was a good year, but a challenging one as well. Two kids in college full-time out of state, some vehicle issues that were more than just a little bit trying, some struggles on the professional front (admittedly partly of my own making), starting a new part-time job, and a more than a fair share of hectic schedule just to name a few. As a result, I have been feeling pretty stretched and tired. It is probably not that much different from the struggles you have faced. We all have our own load to carry.
Over the last month or so, I have been really working on getting myself better organized. I spend more time writing things down so I don’t forget them. I find myself prioritizing my lists so I get the big things done all the time. I find myself scrutinizing the list to make sure that I am not only getting things done, but that I am getting the right things done in the right time frame. I am doing a lot of writing!
I have developed my own little planner for the work week as well as a back-up planner for evenings and weekends. They are not perfect, but they have been effective for me, and I think that I will need them even more as 2019 dawns on me tomorrow.
This is going to be another big year with a lot of challenges. I have a daughter graduating from college, a son entering his senior year, and I am even going back to school to complete my degree! We have a couple of trips planned, a vehicle issue on the horizon, and those are just the things I know about! There could be a whole lot more by the time I sit down in 365 days to write the wrap-up for this year.
So, as is my custom, it is time to draw back the curtain to show the #wordoftheyear. That word I will use as my reminder of where I need to keep my focus to keep moving in the direction I believe God is sending me. So, without any further ado…
Not exactly inspiring, is it? Can’t say I felt a goosebump when I picked it. Had some other options with a little more “panache” like “Determined”, “Purpose”, “Driven”, or even just taking a minimalist approach and going with “No!” I could have chosen anything, but when it comes down to it, I really feel like this is vital for me in the coming year. There is gong to be a lot on my plate, and I don’t mean food.
So, in my #Schedule, I will be adjusting the following items (and probably about 500 more I don’t know about yet) into my daily and weekly routines:
Time with God– I need this. I managed over the past year to only miss one day of reading my Bible, but I would be lying if I said that I put a ton of effort into it. Some days I was checking the box, but other days I was clinging to a life ring. I want to make this year different by scheduling 10-15 minutes every day to reading a short passage and journaling what God is telling me. Will I get a perfect year? We will see!
Time with my wife – I need this. God gave me an amazing woman that He knew I would need to be that perfect complement to my life. We are individuals, but we are one. I may have the job to lead our home, but I do it with her at my side. We have faced some tough stuff together, and we are not done! The kids are one step closer to taking their big steps, and I need to make sure I am giving her the quality time she deserves to keep us connected for our next chapter.
Time for friends– I need this. The past year I have been more withdrawn, and I feel it. I have pulled back from people, events, and other opportunities to engage with people. I have done some of it because I have been busy and I know other people are busy too, so I don’t want to be a burden, but I do have to ask myself if that has at least sometimes been a clever excuse. I need to reconnect with some of the guys in my life.
Time to learn – I need this. I have been stepping back from reading a lot of fiction and have been trying to read books that actually helps me grow. Don’t get me wrong. We have a need for entertainment too, and that is why we have Netflix! Just kidding. I am going to try to read at least one good book per month on personal development, leadership, spiritual growth, marriage, mentoring, etc. Combining that with the materials for college, and you can see how I will need to have that scheduled appropriately to get it all in.
Time to work– I need this. It is more than just paying the bills though. I have a home that needs some repairs. I have the desire to go out to my woodshop and roll around in man-glitter. I need to have things to do that make me feel like I have accomplished something.
Time to be still– I need this. I know it sounds funny, but I will need to schedule time in to do nothing. “Nothing” does not mean couch-surfing either. Nothing means to just be still and let my mind dwell on God in prayer. This needs to become a daily discipline for me. It is more than just a devotional time. This is probably the area I need to focus on most over the next year.
There are a lot of other things that will make the list on my schedule. I pray that by the end of the year I will be able to look back and see where I had a good year because I took the time to schedule things.
What is your plan for 2019? I’d love to hear it! I hope your year will be one committed to #RelentlessGrowth.
There are a number of things about me that are weird. Stick around and I guarantee you will find one for yourself to laugh at. There really is no limit. Making new ones every day, but there are some golden oldies that have been around for a few decades. Wanna hear one? Here goes.
Sometime around the age of 7, I took it upon myself to do a little project, and I recruited my brother and the neighbor kids in this rampant display of ridiculousness. Looking back, I even think this was weird, but I do remember it vividly as something that meant a lot to me even though I think everyone thought I was insane.
My Dad had a little push mower. Green in color with a white Briggs & Stratton motor on top. The mower ran well, but looked rough. The handle, once chromed, was pitted with rust. The deck was covered in layers of “grass juice”, dried clippings, and was scratched up from years of use. The motor was covered in dust, oil, and again, “grass juice”.
I can’t tell you why, but I remember that I looked at it one day and I decided that it needed to be cleaned up and put back in order. So, in what can only be described as delegation gone wild, I got 3-4 other kids to join me in cleaning up this mower. I don’t remember if bribes were involved or how exactly I talked them into it, but they showed up.
So, there we were, armed with a bunch of rags and whatever aerosol products I could scrounge up in the garage that might have some type of solvent properties, we gathered around a 20 inch push mower with the determination to make it shine like new.
I can’t recall how much time we put into the project, but I do remember needing to talk a couple people into coming back to the job and trying to help them capture my vision despite their comments of “waste of time”, “just going to get dirty again”, and “you’re crazy”. Who knew I was in career training…
At the end of the project I remember standing up, by myself because I had finally been abandoned by my crew, and looking at the mower expecting to be filled with a sense of pride and accomplishment. Before me sat the fruits of my labor and it was…
Still a scratched up, stained, rusted, and still fairly greasy mower.
There was not a lot of appreciable change to the mower’s appearance. Yes, the “grass juice had been washed off, and the dried clippings and caked sand were no longer all over it, and there were even parts of the motor that showed the slightest glimmer of shine in the paint, but it still looked rough. I was disappointed. It felt like a waste of time with no discernible improvement.
Later that night, Dad asked me about the mess that I had left on the floor of the garage. Piles of rags, empty spray cans of brake cleaner and WD-40, and the pile of dried clippings we had scraped out from under the mower deck gave evidence of my deeds. I told him what I had done and said I would go clean up the mess. I said it was a waste of time anyway. He said something then that I have not forgotten.
“It might not look like you did a lot on the surface, but what you did do will make a difference.”
He then went on to tell me that in cleaning off the motor, it would run cooler which was better for the motor. In cleaning the air filter I was protecting the engine from debris that could damage it. In getting all of the grass clippings and junk scraped off the deck, I was removing stuff that trapped water and created rust so I was helping the deck last longer.
My restoration project did not turn out like I had hoped it would. There was no obvious change, but it had made an impact for the future. Because I was willing to take the time and put in the effort, the mower was going to run better and last longer. It was, in some ways, a success.
I wonder if that was the catalyst that has given me an appreciation for making the old look new and the broken re-usable. Since then I have been interested in auto restoration, home repair, and recently using reclaimed materials to build things. It seems like I am always trying to figure out how i can take something broken and realize the value in it.
God saw the value in His broken people and provided a way for us to become new as well. Through the redeeming death of His Son, we can experience life change and eternal life with God. On the surface we might not seem that different, but changes are made, and if we submit to the process, those changes will multiply in us until they are seen by those around us. There is no work that God does in the heart of man that does not yield a result for good. Let me say that again,
There is no work that God does in the heart of man that does not yield a result for good.
I have reached the end of another book study in the Bible, and it is time to move on. Colossians taught me a lot about how we are to #SERVEandGROW in life. We serve God and we serve others. That is how we grow. It’s not a difficult formula. Pretty much just those three steps. So easy I can follow it! I have enjoyed the study , and I hope that anyone who read along with me did too.
Now I am going to take a swing at something different. I have pretty much stuck with books of poetry or doctrine, but now I want to do a book of history. It will change some of how I post my thoughts, but I will try to keep with the same basic format of a post a day with a verse and a thought. Forgive me if the text gets a little small from time to time.
We will be going through the book of Ezra. This is the story of the restoration of the temple in Jerusalem after the Jewish exile when Babylon took Israel captive. The city and the temple were destroyed, the “choice” people were taken away, the walls were torn down, and only a few stragglers were left behind. Jerusalem was in shambles. A near wasteland.
God wanted a #Restoration.
God began orchestrating what needed to happen to bring His people home, and He started with the #Restoration of the temple. Later Nehemiah would follow and rebuild the wall and set the city back in order.
Ezra’s efforts might have seemed a little odd. In rebuilding a city, would it not make more sense to build a wall first? Many would agree, but God knew that there needed to be a more important change first. His presence was needed. The city would not be complete because the temple was rebuilt, but without the temple, the city might not have been built. The restoration of Jerusalem needed God more then man.
#Restoration is needed in my life. There are things I have let go, things I should have taken better care of physically, emotionally, spiritually, and relationally. Steps need to be taken to scrape out the junk that might be keeping my life from running as God intended. I may need to wipe away some stuff that lets me see things that need repair. All in all, I am in need of God’s redeeming, restorative work.
As I read through Ezra, I will be looking for what God has to show me in that regard and sharing my findings as I go along. I will post them on my Relentless Growth Facebook Page, and I hope you will follow along. If you see something that speaks to you, let me know! I would love to talk to you about it.
Relentless Growth requires us to not only keep driving forward, but to be willing to take time to #Restore things that need work. We have relationships around us that need God’s hand in them. We have things in our past that we need to learn to overcome and use for God’s glory. In His hands, there is nothing that is not salvageable. Give your heart and life to Him and see what He can do with it!
So, I have a confession to make. I have a problem. I get better for awhile, but then I slip and I find myself right in the middle of it again. I know I need help, and I know that I have friends and family that want to help me, but sometimes their help just drives me deeper into it. I need to get sober, and I hope that this is the year.
Now, before we go any further, I am not struggling with any type of alcohol or drug addiction, and I am not mocking those who do. My struggle is one of a different nature that while not physically damaging, can be just as destructive to the relationships I value.
Anger and a lack of self-control.
I have had a rough time with this since I was a teenager. If I felt mistreated when I didn’t deserve it, I would get angry. It would be even worse when I KNEW I was right. It has been a part of me for years. It ebbs and flows enough that I don’t think that I am known as a hot head (I might be wrong about that), but I am sure that there are enough people out there who have had a peek into that part of me to know it is there.
This past week it rose up again. I lost it and got pretty loud. I realized it right away and made my apologies, but that doesn’t make anything go away. I’m tired of those apologies. I want something better for the people I do life with.
One of my favorite characters on television is from the show Blue Bloods. Tom Selleck plays NYPD Police Commissioner Frank Reagan (Francis to his Dad). Frank is a Marine. He is the son of a cop who also was the Police Commissioner. He has three sons who became cops, and a daughter who works as an assistant district attorney. The family gets together for Sunday dinner every week, and while not perfect, they are always trying.
Week after week I watch Frank come face to face with some seemingly overwhelming obstacle and no discernible right answer. Sometimes he is caught between two of his kids that want him to take their side in an argument. Sometimes he is caught between his church and his work. Sometimes it is the mayor or some publicity issue that is waging war against his personal convictions.
No matter what it is that comes up, by the end of almost every episode, we see that he is able to come to some type of resolution. I know. The magic of television would be VERY convenient if we could just sprinkle it over our own problems!
So, where was I going with this? Oh, yeah. One thing we rarely see happen is Frank “losing it.” His voice gets a little high and he might wave his hands and arms a little as he expresses his frustration with the situation, but even when that happens, we always see the same move take place at that moment when you think he is about to REALLY tee off on someone. I call it the Frank Reagan Scowl of Sober Deliberation. (FRSSD for short)
Rather than lose his temper, Frank pulls out the FRSSD. On screen that usually leads to a soft fade, commercial break, or a quick switch to one of the other story lines that the episode is covering. We don’t get to see how Frank wrestles the problem, and we don’t always get to see how much time the FRSSD needs to be employed before we get to the next step.
What we see is a man who is willing to confront his fears and his anger and hold them in check rather than lashing out. We see a man who looks inside and examines the nuances of not only the situation, but also what his responses might be along with their consequences. He doesn’t react when faced with these tough spots. He thinks about how to face the situation in a manner allowing him to maintain his character and bring about the most equitable solution possible.
I don’t want to say that he is holding it all inside rather than spilling it all out. He spills! However, he only lets out what is necessary for those around him to reach an understanding that he is in turmoil over something, but not willing to lash out while he works on getting to the next face. I call that one the Frank Reagan Face of Bold Resolve. (FRFBR for short.)
When the FRFBR comes out, you know that the situation is now in hand. Frank is getting ready to move ahead. He knows there may be some consequences, but he has measured them and sees them as acceptable. He knows that feelings may yet be hurt, but he has determined that it will not be done in a careless manner. He builds his heart into his response. He usually ends up giving a little more of himself in those situations and plants a seed for growth in the relationship that will help with future confrontations as well.
In 2 Timothy, Paul is speaking to his disciple, Timothy, and telling him how he should conduct himself in his role as a young pastor. Paul knew full well the challenges Timothy would face. Churches are not easy places to live, and it is even harder if you hold a position of leadership. One piece of advice he gave Timothy was this:
As for you, always be sober-minded, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry. – 2 Timothy 4:5
That sober-mindedness he refers to is that Frank Reagan-type of mind. A mind that chooses not to rage at the injustices he sees around him, but to slap on that FRSSD and work on a solution that will allow him to fulfill his ministry as a pastor and reach souls for Christ. He has a job to do, and losing his head will not get it done. He needs to get to that FRFBR and move boldly forward for God in love for those he serves.
Peter also tells us that there is another need for taking the time to wear the FRSSD. It is because there are bigger things at play than what we are facing. Just like there are layers to Frank’s problems and our problems, we have a bigger problem in the wings.
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. – 1 Peter 5:8
Satan wants to get believers to “lose it. ”
If he can get us to “lose it”, he gets to see us hurt the reputation of Christ and His redeeming work. People look at us and see our flaws, but not necessarily the work that God is doing in our lives as a whole. They are just more likely to remember the guy who loses his temper.
If we allow ourselves to “lose it” too many times, we will develop the habit of lashing out and hurting people. Over time that will cause people to pull away from us and also cause us to withdraw to avoid causing pain when we realize that is what we are doing. Once you pull back too much you will find it hard to crawl out again.
So, with 2018 just around the bend. I have decided to make a greater effort at being that SOBER man that Paul and Peter admonish us to be. I like to pick a word every year to focus on, and the year it is #SOBER.
I would love to end this next year looking back and not being able to remember when I had to apologize for losing my temper and saying rash or hurtful things. I would like to be able to see where I put on the FRSSD and worked it out to get to the FRFBR without needing to hang my head in between.
I’m going to need to work at it, and I will need to put some reminders in place over the next year. (My wife and co-workers might start to think I have crush on Tom Selleck because of having his picture taped and tacked up in are different places!) I’ll also need some accountability from my friends, family, and a few co-workers. Tell me to get my “Frank Face” on instead of letting myself get loud.
I’m living a life that is imperfect. I make mistakes, but I am not settling for living that way. Relentless Growth is a determination to not live as I am, but to grow in Christ even when it is hard. This is going to be hard. I am attacking one of my deepest weaknesses in this. What better place to ask for the unlimited strength of God!
I hope you have a great new year and that you find something you are going to focus on as well. Feel free to comment and share this post with others.
Yesterday was my last day in the book of 2 Peter for awhile. (I’ll come back to it, I don’t have it all perfected yet!) Running through that book with #Vigilant as the running thought and theme brought a new focus to me in how I approached situations at home and at work. So many times I think I am seeing things, but the truths Peter brought to light helped me look deeper. No. I have not reached perfection. Far from it, but I have grown a little more, and that is the goal.
So, as always, where to next?
I promote this page, poorly at times, as Relentless Growth, and that was born out of a study I did with my Mentor/Rabbi, Lou, and my best friend, Ray. In that series, I learned a lot about who I am, but I learned a lot more about how God wants me to grow in Him. The study is based on Colossians 2:7. I’m going to add verse 6 to help with the context just a tad:
Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in him, rooted and built up in him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving. – Colossians 2:6-7
As I thought about that study, I am reminded how it brought me to the place where I finally realized my need for a daily walk with God. It took some time to get the habit REALLY locked in, but the daily verse posts I do are a result of that time of learning and the hunger for God and His Word that came out of it. I have been thinking about that time spent with those men a lot lately. I miss those times, and I would guess that all that thinking about those sessions woke up the desire to look into Colossians.
So, here we go! I did a little more research on the book, and one of the best overviews I have found to whet my appetite for the book is from Chuck Swindoll. You can read his take on Collosians here at his Insight for Living web site. He gives an overview of all of the books in the Bible. Good stuff, and he is a far better writer than I!
Chuck’s overview talks about how well Paul described the sovereignty of Christ and the importance of recognizing His Deity. Christ was not just a good man who did some neat things. He is God! He created the universe, spoke us into existence, came to earth to live as a man, and He died for our salvation. He rose again, and now sits at God’s right hand waiting for the moment He will return for His people and begin an eternal reign. WOW!
When you realize all of that, Colossians 2:6-7 is a natural response. If Christ is our Lord, and we really recognize Him as Lord, we are faced with a choice of serving Him or not. As Paul tells us in the very first verse of the book, he is a servant of God’s will, and that is what I am called to be as well. Some days I do it well, and other days…
Relentless Growth is a reminder to me that in order to grow, I must first kneel. I must take myself off the throne of my heart and put God there, where He deserves to be, as my Creator and Sustainer. I must die to my desires and live in the grace, mercy, and new life Christ purchased for me. If I do that, then I will grow! Kneel -> Grow. Submit -> Grow. Serve -> Grow.
I can’t think of a better way to grow in Christ than to take what I learn from His Word and use it to serve others. Whether I am posting a daily verse, doing life with my wife, helping a friend with a project, helping my employees at work, or talking with my kids, I am engaging in service to God that results in personal growth.
So, for the next several weeks, I will be making my way through Colossians as slowly as possible – digging as much truth out as I can in order to use it in service to God. I will enjoy the time I spend learning and sharing. I hope you enjoy it too.
This is Sydney, our Australian Shepherd. Technically she belongs to my daughter who has raised her from a puppy and has given her more love than a dog really should be allowed to have. Sydney has been trained in agility, obedience, and the impressive (yet scarcely called upon) ability to catch slices of banana spat from the mouth of her caretakers. (I personally do not get involved in this one. Not judging. Personal preference.) Sydney is a joy to have, and we marvel at her intelligence and canine personality. She gives us lots of things to talk and laugh about. (Or write about if the time and the will permit!)
This picture was taken at a recent weekend getaway to a family cottage we were blessed to use. There are three large windows behind the couch that give a view of the road out front, several other cottages, and a hopeful glimpse of the lake beyond them. While the road does not have a ton of activity on it, there is enough to catch her attention, and she can often be found either at the window like this or at the sliding door that provides a slightly different scene to monitor.
No matter which observation point she takes, Sydney stands #Vigilant, ready to report what she sees whether it is the kid down the road in his little electric jeep, Bailey, the chocolate Labrador’s meanderings, or the scurrying of a squirrel or a rabbit enjoying the neighborhood’s green grass. Sydney is on point, doing what she was bred to do. She keeps watch over those in her charge – us.
I have reached the end of my journey through the book of 1 Peter, and it is time to move on. The last several weeks have brought a number of special things to my mind and I have enjoyed sharing Peter’s words of #Encouragement through my daily posts. I have been #Encouraged through what I have read, and I pray that those of you who have joined me on the journey have been as well.
While on the aforementioned weekend getaway, I took my study Bible to decide where to go after finishing 1 Peter. I didn’t want to just “soldier on” to the next book in the sequence, as I have enjoyed moving around in my readings. I’d been thinking about going through an Old Testament book like Joshua or 1 Samuel, or maybe even tackling one of the prophets like Jeremiah or Ezekiel. I wasn’t sure, but I was hoping that God would give me a nudge in the right direction.
I got up on the Sunday morning we were there to enjoy the quiet cottage and sounds of the breeze in the leaves of the apple tree outside to read my Bible, post my daily picture and thought, and peruse the notes in my study bible to see what I might find. I usually do my daily reading on my phone, but that day I decided to look into 1 Peter in the hard copy as well and finished reading through to the end of the book. I have to admit that even though I prefer electronic media most of the time now, there is something special about the rustle of those thin pages!
When I got to the end of 1 Peter, right there across the page was the heading information and outline for 2 Peter. (Funny how that works, isn’t it?) At the top of the page beside the little synopsis of the book was a picture of a dog/wolf that was calling out a warning. It caught my eye and I decided to read into the material there to see what it had to say. By the time I had finished that I was already on my way to reading through the 3 chapters that make up the book of 2 Peter, and at the end of that I had made my decision – with more than an ample nudge from the Spirit.
2 Peter it is.
Peter pens this second letter as a warning to his readers. He will soon be martyred and he takes this last opportunity to reach out to those he loves and those he hopes to help with the imperative message of being #Vigilantfor things to come. He wants to shout a warning of some things and inform them about others, and it all comes as a result of his years following Christ and serving Him in helping to start, grow, and care for the church.
Peter was a bold man, prone to putting his foot in his mouth from time to time and being impetuous in his behavior. Probably the most transparent example of the Christian walk we have in the New Testament, he has always been a hero of mine as I struggle with many of the same tendencies he did. Perhaps that is why I wanted to move on in a different direction rather than continuing to read his words. He strikes too close to home!
After reading 2 Peter, I see three main things that Peter tells us to watch for:
Opportunities to Grow in Christ– In chapter 1, he shows us that as we work out our faith in our attitudes and actions, we will be presented in every circumstance to “level up” in our walk. (2 Peter 1:5-8) We will never fully “arrive”, and we need to be looking at how we handle things that take place around us and take an honest look at ourselves as well. How do we do it? Through the Truth of God’s Word, carefully prepared for us through the Holy Spirit working through the hands of man. (2 Peter 1:16-21)
Dangers to Growing Christians – Chapter 2 is full of warnings of things to watch out for. Whether false prophets, personal desires, or the influences of others, there is no shortage of things Satan will send against us to pull us from our walk in Christ. Our spiritual health is in jeopardy and under attack on every side, but God is there for us and He knows how to rescue us from any attack (2 Peter 2:9)
The Hope to Come – There is more to come than this earth, and Peter impresses on his readers that they need to be watching for it. It is not that we will miss it, because there will be no doubt when the Lord returns. What Peter is impressing upon us is that as we watch for the return of Christ, we will also be watching our actions as we prepare for His coming. We will talk to those we know and love about Him. We will share His goodness, and we will try to live a life that is not in slavery to sin.
I am looking forward to this next book for my personal time, and I also look forward to sharing a little of it. What about you? Are you spending time in God’s Word every day? I hope you are. If we are going to live our lives in Relentless devotion to God, we need that time. It draws us close to Him for comfort and strength, but it also gives us insight into the events unfolding in the world around us.
Whether it is home, work, school, church, or wherever you may happen to be, we need to be watchful like Sydney. We need to be on guard against dangers to ourselves and those we love. We need to be ready with a defense, but also to rescue, comfort, or be a shield to someone under attack. We need to be determined to hold our position as leaders, husbands, mothers, teachers, and friends. In short, we need to be #Vigilant.
Vigilant – Keeping a careful watch for possible dangers or difficulties.
Keep your eyes open, everyone. There is a lot going on out there.
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Wow. I am 44today. Think back to when you were a teenager. What is that “oldest age” you ever really pictured yourself as? Do you remember? It seems like I do, and it was right about here. 44 years old…(I don’t see that as any type of foreshadowing about what this next year holds, just kind of funny that it popped into my head this morning.)
This last year has been a crazy one, and it looks like I am poised to do it all over again. Time to give a quick little breakdown about what has happened, what is happening, and how I hope I Relentlessly respond to it. I like to share since I tend to stay more accountable to some of this stuff when people know about it.
Health – Well, as far as the diabetes goes, I am doing better than great. My doctor actually stopped me in the hall the other day after my bloodwork hit his desk and gave me a hug. If you knew my doctor, you would be amazed! I have kept a normal blood sugar since my diagnosis, have stepped my meds down, and kept my weight down. I also am showing great numbers in the cholesterol and triglycerides. Probably the healthiest I have been in 20 years in that regard.
New challenge. Just found out I have two herniated cervical discs. Not sure what the treatment will be yet as I am waiting to get in to see the specialist. Pain is terrible, and I feel basically useless. Hard to enjoy the above success when I feel this way, but I am pressing on. My son asked me the other day what the lesson God has for me in this, and I have been thinking about that a lot since He asked. I still don’t have a solid answer, but I am wondering about something.
I have often wondered if I am modeling a life of dependency on God for my family and friends to see. I have other friends who I look to and think that they are so dependent on God, and I wish I could be that way too. Maybe I am starting to model it because my son is asking me what I learn from the trials I face. He has heard me talk about how God used diabetes to remove food from the throne of my heart. He has heard that I don’t always need to know why, but I need to trust that God will show what I need to see when I need to see it.
So, Zach, maybe the lesson in this is that God is telling me that while I have not arrived, I am definitely in the process of Relentless Growth in this. He chose to give me a blessing in the knowledge that you are seeing me try to live a life of dependence. There may be more to come, but I will take this in humble praise to Him for the moment.
Fatherhood– I am finishing up my last year of what I term as “active parenting”. My role as protector and guide is shifting into advisor and counselor/consultant as Zach will join Jessica at college this fall. I am so proud of my kids and I know God is going to do great things in their lives. It is definitely a bittersweet feeling to watch them at this stage and know just how much different things will be at Tanner Manor this fall.
My challenge is to be present, but not controlling. Available, but not underfoot. I have often found this balance difficult and tend to pull back rather than be a hassle to the kids (unless I feel they need a good hassling!). Praying that God gives me the wisdom and insight to be there for them while they are at school.
Husbandhood– Tammi and I have had some amazing discussions this past year, and I hope she agrees that we have grown much closer as a result of them. Seeing Jessica go to school last year and experiencing that change in our family dynamic has definitely turned me more toward watching Tammi. I see how I have taken advantage of her sometimes in how she always handles things for our family. I need to be more present for her, attentive to her needs. Actually think about what could be wrong and what I can do about it rather than just ask her all the time. (She will like that one!)
We are soon going to be just the two of us again, and that is going to mean a little more freedom, but also a little more responsibility. She will still need to talk about her feelings, thoughts, and dreams, and I will be the only one there. I will need to shift some of how I tend to love my wife in order to meet that need. We have talked about it some, and we know we have always done these new things together. We have been parenting actively for the last two decades, but we only had a little over two years before that as a couple, so this is still a somewhat unexplored realm for us. It is kind of exciting to think I will be able to have her to myself again though! (Sorry kids, Mom was here first!)
Friendships– It has been a strange year in this regard. The extensive change that has taken place has pulled us from being as close to some as we once were, but has brought us into new friendships with others. I think I had set some unrealistic goals in trying to “fast track” some things that needed more time, and that left me feeling discouraged a few times. This year I want to just be more present in those moments that come before me. Take the time to identify what God might want me to be in that moment rather than just looking at how I want things to be or what I can get out of it.
My Walk – I started something new a little before my birthday last year. Every day I post a verse of the day with an image and my thought for personal application. It has helped me keep the thought alive in my mind every day since I do it before my feet hit the floor. Over the last year I have gone through Proverbs a couple times, the book of Psalms, and am now going through James. You can follow those by “Liking” my Relentless Growth Facebook Page.
This next year I would like to find time to expand my time of study and start spending more time in areas that I really need to grow. I want to be realistic in that though. For now, maybe the verse a day and writing here a little more often might be the best thing. Something to pray about for sure.
Priorities– It has been a year of shifting and reassessing for us in many aspects. Work, family, church, friends, service, and the list goes on. So many things have shifted and will continue to shift as we enter another year of major change as “empty nesters”. Praying that God will give me wisdom, grace and insight necessary to lead my wife well with a servant leadership that build into her as we face the challenges together.
I hope I don’t bore you with a long post like this that is basically about me. I’ll admit that the biggest reason for this post is to take a minute to actually write down and think about what has happened and how I am going to respond to it over the next year. I need that for me because it helps “reset” the panel. I can look at everything that has happened. See a little bit better in hindsight and hopefully that gives me insight and if things REALLY work out some foresight!
Let’s face it. Life is Relentless. It will never stop coming at us. If we want to get anything of quality out of it, we need to be Relentless in our pursuit of God and in our growth for His glory. Relentless Growth. We all need it.
For the last few months I have been posting a daily photo on Instagram and on my Relentless Growth Facebook Page that contains a verse and a thought for the day. Psalms is a book of praise, a songbook of sorts. It is full of songs of praise and worship to God, encouragement for us, and insights into how we can praise God in the every day moments. The lyrics in the book of Psalms are truly lyrics for living our lives in relationship with God as David did.
Posting a daily image with a verse and a thought has been really good for me. Since so much of Psalms drew from David’s coping with adversity, it has been helpful for me in facing the challenges that come across my desk and life on a daily basis. I have been shown that I can praise God Relentlessly while I am still IN the trial. That encouragement has been the source of power that has gotten me through some very hard days without doing or saying something that I would need to apologize for later!
I have also been encouraged by a number of people who have reached out to me over the past year or so of posting these images. There have been times that I have not “felt” the desire to take the time to read in the morning, but I know that there are a few people who are checking in on me day to day, and that gives me a feeling of responsibility to keep going. It’s not that I have such wisdom to share, it’s all about sharing God’s life changing power at work in my life and the lives of others.
Let the one who is taught the word share all good things with the one who teaches. – Galatians 6:6 (ESV)
So, since I want to share the good things I am learning in hopes that it will help others, and since people are sharing with me as well, this last day in the book of Psalms makes it necessary for me to pick a new book of the Bible to go through. After a lot of prayer and thinking, it has been made clear to me that the next book I will go through will be James.
The book of James is both one of my favorite books and one of the most convicting I have ever read. James does a fantastic job of showing us the Truth of God and the example of Christ as the standard to which we should compare ourselves. It’s not about being better than the next guy in order to feel good about yourself. It is all about measuring yourself against Christ in an effort to be a bold, Relentless follower who lives for the Kingdom of God.
To put it simply, the book of James is the biblical equivalent of looking in the mirror every morning to see what needs to be done. When I get up in the morning and look in the mirror, I see a guy that needs some change! If I were to just walk out the door without making any changes then that would be pretty foolish! I need help!
So, I am going to go to James every morning now to see what I need to fix. It will be my daily “mirror check” before I put feet on the floor so God can have the first shot at me and turn me in the direction He wants me to go. My hope is that as I share what He is showing me, it might spark something in someone else too. Maybe it can be a mirror check for all of us.
If I want to live a Relentless Life, I must be willing to take the time to not only look at what needs to change, but then to take the steps necessary to do it. If I don’t take those steps, then I am a fool. I don’t know about you, but I don’t like to look like a fool. I want to make the wise decisions that bring God glory as He shapes me into what He wants me to be.
So, starting tomorrow, those of you who are interested can meet me over at the Relentless Growth page for the daily #mirrorcheck. I hope it will be encouraging to you. I’m excited to see what God is going to show me about myself and where I need to make adjustments for Him! Hope to see you there, and I would love to hear what God is doing in your life too!
Not too long ago, I asked my son if he had watched the reboot of the Fantastic Four yet. Wish I could put into this post the trembling sound that accompanied his reply,
As funny as it was to hear that fearful tone, it was trumped moments later when I pulled the movie out of our library and headed toward the DVD player:
“But I’ve been good!”
Thank you, Fox Studios. The varied success of the X-Men movies aside, you have planted seeds of doubt and mistrust in the heart and mind of my son.
Well, I am not one who has ever allowed my kids to avoid something they don’t want when I think there might be a lesson in it for them, so of course the disc was fed into the machine and we sat down to enjoy the show.
If you are not familiar with the attempts from Marvel to make these characters into another version of the box-office juggernaut Avengers, then you might be in a good place. Not being subjected to two of the Fantastic Four movies has probably left you with a little more confidence in Marvel.
The movie was a re-boot of the franchise, and it altered the story line quite a bit. I grew up reading comics, and one of the biggest things I have had to come to grips with during this onslaught of super hero movies has been the constant use of the re-boot. I have gotten better about it, and this movie proves the point I am going to try to make.
As the movie started, I told Zach to forget about the other two movies that were made and enter this experience with fresh eyes. I wanted him to judge this movie on its own merit rather than comparing it to other movies whether they were good or bad.
At the end of the movie I asked him what he thought about it and he agreed that while it was not the best movie he has seen, it was not a bad movie. It was a great transition into discussing expectations versus reality when it comes to communicating thoughts, and how something that seems to be great may not always translate to an audience we are trying to reach. Since he is looking into marketing as a career, I think that is going to be a big part of his life moving forward.
Expectations are good things, but we when we expect something from a person, we need to be sure that they are capable of delivering on that expectation. If they are not, then we need to change the expectation. Holding someone to an expectation they cannot achieve is wrong on our part – not theirs.
Relentless Growth requires us to look not just at how we view our expectations of others, but also at ourselves. Do we set expectations that we cannot reach? Sometimes we do. It’s good to stretch, but there are things we cannot achieve on our own, and we are just as wrong to hold ourselves to those unrealistic expectations as we are to hold others to the impossible.
God has standards and expectations that we cannot reach our own. There are gaps of holiness that we can’t get past, but He was willing to provide His Son to us in order to bridge those gaps and allow us access to Him. He doesn’t ask us for more than we can do, but He does ask us to let Him do in us what we cannot do for ourselves. We CAN have the expectation that the unfailing God will pull through and deliver on His Word.
So, get ready for Him to do Fantastic things! (Yeah. that was a groaner!)
As I sat down tonight to write, I saw the date of my last post here on my blog, and I was a bit surprised at how long it has been. 37 days! I would ask if anyone missed me, but I might be afraid to hear the answer. I guess we will see what happens when I drop this post!
The last month and a half has been very busy. In truth, 2017 has been busy! It seems like almost every day I crawl into bed with that “Where have you been all day?” feeling. Come on, I can’t be the only one!
The last three weeks have had work training me in Chicago twice and now I am away again to a company retreat and meeting. It seems like this year all of the training was crammed into a very tight little window. A lot of time away from work and home.
Tonight I sit in a hotel room alone. Over the last month I have spent several nights in hotels, and for a few of them I was fortunate enough to have my wife and son with me, but tonight is not one of those nights.
I had my “social” time that we are encouraged to participate in so we can get to know each other and network to exchange ideas and best practices, but I am that guy who steps away from the crowd before things get “really fun” in order to go back to my room for something more productive.
With all of the training I have been to lately, I have been inundated with a boatload of information that has resulted in being motivated to get all kinds of action plans together in order to be a better manager and improve countless processes. The amount of stuff I have before me makes me feel that old weight of performance-based anxiety settle in on my shoulders. I don’t like that feeling…
Also with all the time I have been gone, I have felt the longing for time in my home and with my family. To be apart from them is wearying to my bones, and with Jessica already away at school, I only have two of my three favorite people to be with in the evenings. I want to give them my full attention, and that workload is something I have been struggling to put behind me when I walk in the house. Not as successful on that front as I would like to be some evenings…
Also, on the outer edges of my mind has been this feeling of missing my time with my friend Ray doing a Bible study, sharing life, and kicking each other in the teeth when we need it. We have both been experiencing an uptick in stress lately, and those times we get together to share and do a little life as men really helps us. We did have a meeting a couple of weeks ago, but my travel has taken that off the table this week and last…
So, tonight when I got back to the room and got comfortable, I fired up the laptop to do what I usually do when I am alone in a hotel room.
Yep. Party guy am I… I usually take these opportunities to settle in and get some of the stuff done that has been hanging over my head and catch up a little. My family is not here for me to engage with, so I might as well take care of some of the stuff piling up at work to reduce some of the stress, right? Isn’t that a mature thing to do?
Well, tonight I chose to write instead.
Writing is something I love to do. It helps me clear some of the cobwebs from my mind and get some thoughts in order. My wife can tell you that I am one who thinks out loud, and dumping out my brain from time to time to see what might be stuck in the corners is a very good thing for me. Writing helps me do that, but I have not been very good about it lately.
With everything going on, I had pretty much decided that I was probably going to say goodbye to this blog. Probably not forever, but for a time at least. I just don’t have the time to build a readership and develop this thing into the ministry I hope it could be one day. It takes time to write, and I just have not had the time to devote to doing it well.
That is part of the reason I started to post pictures to my Relentless Growth Facebook Page instead of here every day. I thought I would just let this page fade away. Nobody would probably miss it anyway. If I can’t do it well, then why should I bother? Might as well quit.
That thought went through my mind when I opened up WordPress tonight. What was I doing? Is this a good use of my time? I could be working! It’s not like that pile of stuff is going to go away on its own! Then I remembered a pic I saw the other day:
It became clear to me that this is a fight I need to stay in. Not necessarily because there may be twos of threes of people who might read this and be encouraged. Right now, it is because I need it. I need this little break from my work thoughts so I can shake out those corners of my mind and set some things straight again. I need it to because my priorities may be getting out of whack!
I need this time to slow down and examine some of the stuff I am working through in order to get the right perspective for moving forward again. It’s like I learned in one of my classes last week:
“When I slow down, I go faster.”
I need the slow down to keep me from burning out. I need the slow down to take me away from work. I need the slow down to be a better husband, a better father, and a better follower of Christ. Those are the things that matter the most to me on this earth. They are so much more important than a budget, a process, or an action plan. They are the things that keep me centered. The things that keep me FOCUSED.
This little break tonight is part of my Relentless Growth. It was a nudge from God to hunker down for a second and let the battle rage around me, but not be in it for a little while. Time to sit and think about what is important. Time to acknowledge the gifts He has given me and see where the priorities of my life need to be. Time to see that this is a time that I hear Him speak into my heart as I write.
I’ve neglected this too much lately. I need to do it more often, and I am going to start scheduling it into my week somewhere. There must be time to do this because God doesn’t seem to want to take this desire to write away from me. He apparently wants this door to remain open.
So, as for you, Dear Reader, I guess I am back. Not sure what the schedule is going to look like for posts, but I am going to be here again on a regular basis. Not daily, but regularly. If you feel like subjecting yourself to my thoughts more often, then come over to the Facebook page for Relentless Growth and “Like” it for a daily dose.
Before I log off tonight, I just want to take a minute and say thanks to those who do encourage me to write. My wonderful wife, Tammi, is chief among them, and I know she sometimes feels she is keeping me from doing just that. (She is almost always right, but not on that one!) I appreciate your words, and I hope mine encourage you in some way as well.
So, goodnight all! I will see you here again! I think I might go read my book before bed! Work will be there tomorrow!