Last night I made a call to some friends to ask them for some prayer. My wife and I have been working on getting ready for our daughter’s graduation, and that has led to a lot of hard work and stress. We have been leaning on each other a lot, and I know we would be struggling more if we were not such a good team! Yesterday it became painfully obvious to me that I was on the verge of losing it at work. At the end of the day I actually closed the door and worked in the dark for the last half hour so people would think I was gone!
I identified the source of my problem in fighting off feelings of anger, apathy, and a general “Leave me alone!” attitude as a lack of sleep and time in God’s Word. Once that hit me, I sent a message out asking my buddies to pray for me, and also telling them that I intended to get in the Word last night.
This morning, one of the guys sent me a text to ask how my time in the Word and a good night’s rest helped me. I felt like telling him that it was great and I felt better, but I “fessed up” and told him the truth. I didn’t do it last night even though I knew I needed to. Then I told him I was going to take the time to do this morning what I needed to do last night and get in the Word.
I did it.
I read in Joshua 4 how the Israelites set up stones of remembrance on the bank of the Jordan after crossing into the Promised Land. The stones were to be a reminder to future generations that God had showed up in the lives of His people. Those stones had two purposes in my mind:
1. They drew the eyes of those unfamiliar with a living God, and made them ask a question. God’s plan was for His people to continue to tell His story to those that didn’t know it.
I have a paper on the door of my office where I have written things I am thankful for, and I have encouraged my staff to use it as well. It has prompted some good conversations, and in a way it is like those stones. A visual indication that something has taken place.
2. They made the person who knew the story actually think about what God had done as they told the story. They had to recall how God did His miracle there, and it probably brought back the feeling of awe at seeing God at work.
After reading my Bible this morning, I came back to my door and read through some of the things I have written and I remembered how I felt when I wrote them. It was a great reminder to me that God wants to be at work in my life, and is actually there every day – even the days I choose not to notice it.
There was another thing I noticed when I read the paper on the door. It had been two weeks since I had written anything on it. Maybe if I had been thinking about what God has been doing for me, I would have been in a better frame of mind.
So, to the guys that were praying for me, I say, “Thank you!” God used your prayers to turn my heart this morning. I am still fighting the weariness and irritation, but I am very aware this morning of God at work in me, and I am relying on Him more today than I have been the last week or so. I guess those stones on the banks of the Jordan still get the job done!
I could have just wallowed in my misery and enjoyed a big old pity party, but Relentless Growth will not allow that. I want to thrive in the life that God has given me, and I am glad that He has loved me enough to give me His living Word and good friends I can talk to that care enough to talk back!