I’m feeling it. That pressure that sits right behind the eyeballs. The pressure of knowing there is more to do than can be done, and that leaves you feeling paralyzed and unable to do anything. Sleep is not the answer because once it happens, the dreams wake you up again. You end up going through the day feeling like you are constantly trying to catch up as you see yourself falling farther behind.
Yep. That’s where I am right now. Call it what you want, stressed, frazzled, tired, deprived, or half crazy. I just know that I have had a headache for the last five days, and have averaged about four hours of sleep for the last 4 nights. I’m beat. Feeling like I got little or nothing left.
So, I guess I only have one of two choices. I can either continue to feel sorry for myself or I can give it to God.
Pity Party for One – The problem is, I know that having a pity party for one is not possible. You just can’t feel sorry for yourself without affecting other people. They will either fall into your funk, or they will get fed up with your funk! Either way, you will end up dragging others down. I know I have done that today, and I need to apologize to my kids this evening. Tammi is gone tonight, so she avoided my party. (At least today’s party…) Tammi, I’m sorry for the last couple days!
Give It to God – Psalm 27:13 says – “I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!” I have looked at that as a prayer in the past, but what if it was a statement of war against Satan’s constant attacks at my joy? Would I see a difference in my attitude? Probably so. I think that is going to be my “mantra” tomorrow. (That should have some old Baptists cringing! Tom is chanting!) I need to keep my head focused on looking for God’s goodness. A Relentless view of God’s hand at work in my life and around me. That should help with the joy problem!
Relentless living doesn’t mean you can’t have rough days, but it does mean that as you think them through, you can and will find your joy again. It probably won’t be in the events around you, but it can always be found in God!